05Nov07

Is it possible to be in love with someone you just met?

Because I swear I am.

I have never felt this way about any guy I have ever met.

Well. I met him at the begining of the school year, but I didn’t start really talking to him untill recently.

This is weird.

This is wonderful.

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I’m so sick of everything. I’m so sick of people understanding me. Even my best friend doesn’t understand me. I’m not being emo. I need something more. I need fire. I need passion. I want people who are on fire for God. I want my friends to understand that.

I’ve got intervarsity. My friends there no what I’m talking about.

I’m so sick of religion. I’m sick of motions. I want realness. I want to see people running around their church jumping for joy, screaming out praises to God because their so happy.

I’m sick of NOT HAVING A CHURCH TO CALL MY OWN. Everyone in the quad cities is so religious. We have very few good churches around here. I want fire. I want passion. I WANT EXCITEMENT!


I, Hannah Clark, actually have a crush on someone.

A true crush on someone.

 This is odd.

His name is Matt.

Hes in Intervarsity with me.

I can’t help it.

He’s too nice to me.

I won’t mistake kindness for him liking me though.

Though I hope he does.

I want to hold someones hand.

Hmmm.

I climed a rock wall!

 I did it. 30 feet high straight up.

It was awesome.

This is all.


I still have those moments where I’m in awe of everything that God has done. I just think wow.

He let his only Son die..for me. Even when I’m not worthy. It just amazes me. Can you immagine how painful that would be? I cannot even being to fathom it. Just think how sad God must have been, but at the same time I think he could have been happy. He knew it would save the world. Could you sacrafice your own son or daughter? I don’t think I could.

That is true love. Agape love. True Love. True Love. True Love.

The earth was shaking in the dark
All creation felt the Fathers broken heart
Tears were filling heavens eyes
The day that True Love died, the day that True Love died
When blood and water hit the ground
Walls we couldn’t move came crashing down
We were free and made alive
The day that True Love died, The day that True Love died

^^ Just because I can. I think you know who this song is by. Okay, fine, it’s Phil Wickham.

MMM.

There are more things that continualy amaze me about God but I leave those for later.

On a side note: I love Intervarsity. I really love it. It’s really awesome when I can make the connections in what we’re studying to songs I love. It just clicks! It’s so wonderful.

Ahhh God is so amazing.

I’m going on a retreat this weekend. YAY. I cannot wait.


Speak to me:

14Oct07

Close my eyes, I’m trying to listen
Oh cause it’s been so long since I’ve heard you speak
Send your love, cover over the distance
Between You and between me

Oh how long must I wait for my love
Cause I need You oh I need You
My heart is bursting and breaking apart
For my love

Blind my eyes, I’m looking to heaven
Holding all Your promises against my chest
I offer up the life I’ve been given
Till my last breath

Your coming is as sure as the sun is rising
Here comes the day it’s breaking in my heart
Your children are running to you

Must I Wait – Phil Wickham

These lyrics speak to me. Seriously. The longing. Phil Wickham has a way of puting into words what I want to say to God.


CANNONS!

Yes!!


My stomache is full of knots. I just realized I really like this guy. I really truly honestly like this guy. This is not good. And it could or could not be the guy I talked about in my last post.

Shoot.

-Hannah